A trip out of the hostel

7th September 2013, Saturday
The first day I get my ass off from the hostel and go out for fresh air,
there's 13 chinese included me group up as a gang and depart with "van sapu"
Our first destination was Mydin,
Mydin is actually like a shopping complex, 
there's basically a lot of shops inside (those shop that I never know the name),
and a quite large super market.
Things inside are ok-ish,
at least you can find food and drinks,
clothes and electrical devices inside,
not that much variety,
but still better than nothing.
I bought a water heater by Pensonic,
basically cost me RM78.90,
there are many other boiler that cost around RM20~RM40 each, 
but those boiler's body are all made up by plastic,
and I don't really feel good boiling water inside a plastic container,
that's why I chose a stainless steel one from Pensonic,
might be pricey,
at least I feel safe using it.

There's a Giant Hypermarket right behind Mydin,

we took about 10 minutes to walk from Mydin to that Giant,

Giant is slightly larger than Mydin,

there's Pizza Hut, KFC and Big Apple Doughnut inside there as well.

GOD, I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED WHEN I SAW BIG APPLE DOUGHNUT

THE WHOLE SHOP IS SHINNING LIKE A STAR IN MY EYES

However,

I didn't get myself doughnuts because I'm suffering from cough,

until now.

Orz

We called the van to send us,

from Mydin to China Town (I don't know what is it called in English, I'm sorry)

This is taken at 1st September 2013, day time, it's the entrance of the China Town

When we reach the street,

99% of the shops are closed,

left food courts and restaurants still operating.

All these are random snapshots that I'm too lazy to make caption for each of them,
but those are the precious views that I saw along the way when I'm taking my little tour in the street.

Tomorrow will be officially the first day of my class,

I hope I can stop thinking nonsense after all the busy days arise.

Don't Give Up Ken Min,

Not even for one moment.

Uphold that dream

- Fantasy . Lockheart -

Be brave, be strong 

Back to Blogger.. New chapter, new discovery, new life..?

Well, after months of "empty" life,
I've reach yet another stage of my life,
Degree studies.
Maybe I've rest and relaxed too much,
everything seems so tough now,
of course I never expect it to be simple though.
However,
seriously,
does it necessarily to be this tough?
Does it even worth it?
Making myself so cheap for this particular place,
just to earn that okay-ish degree in this okay-ish university?
God-knows-it.

I departed at 1st September 2013,

from my pretty home,

to Kuala Terengganu,

throwing in everything into my car,

pillows, bags, luggage and etc (food also),

with a last gaze on my Mr. Bear Bear,

I head out.

Going on a long journey,

an unknown journey,

to unveil the next mysterious chapter of my life.

Tons of expectations and imaginations running through my head,

I'm trying hard, so hard to cover my anxious,

I'm the one chosen this path,

I have the responsibility to carry on.

Those 80's songs are playing at a pretty loud volume,

all of them are my mom's precious collections,

she used to play them in the living room,

memories once again flushing through my head.

Primary school, secondary school, Pre-University,

and now heading to the first step of University life.

It's a long journey,

a journey to another state,

as well as a journey of my mind,

through memories,

and imaginations on my future.

After lost in a middle of no where and eventually being rescued by GPS,

we reached a "hotel"that called Hotel Seri Malaysia Kuala Terengganu,

just a place to rest before I head on UMT for registration.

I even forgot how to tie my necktie on the next morning,

morning of 2nd September 2013.

I know,

I'm not prepared,

physically and mentally,

I'm basically pushing myself to accept everything all of a sudden,

while before this I'm running away from myself all the time,

expecting everything to be fine.

I actually knew how worst can it goes,

but I refuse to project it into my mind,

I try to make everything seems fine,

and gastric pain is killing me everyday every single moment,

even now.

Head out to the highway,

it's a straight road right towards the campus.

The nearer I get,

the more anxious I am.

I'm acting calm while inside me is shouting :" please let me get away from here ".

Entering the campus,

things seems fine from outside,

and there's lots of people lining for registration also.

Now comes the part I most concern about,

I've seen whatever worst school before,

I don't really mind the place I study in,

I'm super concern about the place where I'll live in.

This hostel,

is making me furious,

every single corner is striking into my head,

imaginations shattered,

the worst does happened,

as a reality.

Tiny room for 4,

half door steel cupboard,

double-decker bed (with no staircase),

a narrow table and a chair.

Bathroom is literally a closed room with a pipe inside, nothing more.

The whole 2nd floor of this Block is sharing these 8 toilets and 8 shower rooms.

2 places for people to wash clothes.

Water boiler in room is not allowed.

I don't want to describe anymore,

it'll only make me more emotional.

The orientation week,

leave no impact on me,

why?

I fall sick,

at the 2nd week of orientation.

At this crucial beginning of hostel life,

I sick.

This is making everything even more tough now,

the water dispenser is spoiled as well,

everyone is asking me to drink more water,

yeah I know,

but how.

Fine,

It's all up to me right now,

I've to stand on my own feet,

in this kind of place,

where I have to squeeze inside the crowd to take a mere shower.

Being sardine-fied just because I wanted to wash my clothes.

I'm tired of this,

living with crowd is seriously not my style.

Together with such facilities and limited space.

Seriously, it sucks, so much.

I'm being mentally tortured as well as physically tortured.

When everyone in the room went out,

and I'm staying all alone,

my mind is all messed up,

too many stress rushed into my head at the same time,

I don't know how to handle,

I even gave up on thinking,

I feel like making my own brain stop working,

making myself stop breathing,

and end everything in such stupid way.

I couldn't,

because I can't even think anymore.

At least when someone's here,

I could calm down myself for awhile,

there's still people out there,

and people near to me still doing the same as I do,

might not feeling the same as I do,

at least they're experiencing the same situation as me,

might not be as emotional as me though.

Even the skies here seems different,

the air here smells different,

the water here tastes different.

I know it's my responsibility to adept to such difference,

get used and move on.

Realities are always much tougher than words and imaginations.

Memories of the happier days are making the current situation seems even tougher.

The only one that make me emotional now is music,

the only one that able to calm me now is also music.

You pressed inside my mind,

Since the day you came,

I knew you would be with me,

all the time we spent,

what we shared would surely,

warm enough to know you cared for me.

Light flushed through memories,

helps me walk my path,

I'll keep my head up high,

words and faith and love,

your strong gave me hope,

someday I'll find you in open arms.

- Fantasy.Lockheart -

I'm the one who made this choice,

I'm the one who responsible for this choice as well.

Mr Bear Bear

Kuala Terengganu Chinese Street

Annual Dinner? =/

Today is my company's Annual Dinner,
actually they already planned today's dinner early at the starting of February,
but somehow,
the "Annual Dinner" is quite disappointing for me =/

Maybe I'm expecting too much from this company already xD

However,

it's classic Annual Dinner,

with food,

and Prize Giving session.

Prizes are given to those employees with excellent performance,

and also to those experienced employees as a sign of respect.

Basically those food are all from Catering Service,

not to say it's bad,

but it's just nothing more than ordinary.

even there is not enough seat,

until I have no chance to take a photo of my food taken.

Those foreign workers are eating too much,

until 1000 Satay vanish as soon as it's served.

My face expression when I'm trying to take Satay is like this : =O

As a new worker there,

I'm also had a little prize,

Beryl's Chocolate~!

the packing is cute enough until I feel like keeping it like this into the fridge.

0.0

My GM told me that it's chocolate inside =/

About 8pm,

the event ended.

Seriously,

nothing much happened,

everyone is just busy eating,

and busy waiting for food to continue eating.

Basically it's literally a DINNER.

=/

Again,

I start playing with my eyeliner,

I might looks weird,

but it's my first attempt to draw elongated lines.

:O

My colleague, the mighty Stephanie~!! she is going to graduate this year after this training in the company :D

Bagila aku act cute~!

Sometimes,

I found it hard to find a place to dry my brushes.

Suddenly,

I saw my makeup mirror,

and I think of a funny idea.

DIY brush holder~! LOL

LOL

Fantasy . Lockheart 

please to visit CheanChean's awesome bloggie :D

chean chean :D

PS to cheanchean : The mascara you gave me is super awesome, I like it so so much :DD thank you so ooo much :DDD

Annual Dinner? =/

Aww bloggie :DD

I think it's already a month since my last blog post.
I actually felt guilty for abandon my blog for such a long time, but seriously, recently I'm so stressed up and tensed, until there's no time nor mood for blogging.
However, now I'm back bloggie~!!

After the make up trip,

I'm still constantly hanging out with yengyeng and cheanchean,

either shopping or a little dinner,

at least we kept in touch.

For the first time,

I went the Nyonya Restaurant called Sok Hau Sok Min at Seri Petaling with cheanchean, yengyeng and yengyeng's sister at 22 February 2013.

Too bad my phone was out of battery that day, so I didn't take any picture xD

Last Saturday,

I went to cheanchean with yengyeng for a makeup exploring camp! :D

Before we go to her house, we had out lunch at Padi House Seri Petaling,

I had my favorite lamb chop :>

About 2pm, we finished our lunch and start our makeup camp at cheanchean's house.

Cheanchean shown us her awesome makeup skill by doing two looks on each side of her half face.

I remember the left side was Korean look while the right side was European style.

Both are awesome though :DD

After practicing so many times on lining my eyes,

finally i get a chance to let cheanchean line my eyes,

and I'm actually shocked after saw those lines on my eyes.

OAO *so eyeliner should be drawn like this*

since I've never use Liquid Liner before (my eyeliner is pencil liner)

I asked cheanchean to try liquid liner on me

and I'm quite satisfied with the outcome

and I decided to get myself a liquid liner :DD

Time flies,

soon after we tired of playing with out makeup,

it's already around 6pm,

and I've a date with SimSim at 7pm,

before I left her house,

she treated us with her homemade kurogoma icecream,

and I actually like that unique taste xD

cheanchean promised me and yengyeng that we can play with icecream next time :>

At 7pm, it was raining,

and I went back to Seri Kembangan to meet simsim and fishy.

Tired face after the whole day, with fake smile -.-

this cute little mascary is a gift from cheanchean, thank you <3 font="">

18 March 2013,

STPM result announcement date for STPM terminal 2012,

which means,

my results are going to unveiled on that day.

I don't have much comment on that result and also that day.

I'm too moody until I almost forgot what actually happened on that day.

'

That night after I took my result,

I ask simsim to come out and eat sushi with me,

I've decided to treat her some nice little sushi to express my gratitude towards her,

although it's just a simple treat,

but seriously,

thank you miss.sim,

thank you for whatever you've done to me, 

that makes me scores a perfect 4.0 for my favourite Chemistry,

Thank You.

Last Saturday,

I was supposed to go IOI Mall with yengyeng,

to Daiso and Sakae.

However,

mommy last minute said that she wanna go The Mines with me for a little walk,

so I postponed my date with yengyeng,

and go with mommy.

(since there is also Sakae and Daiso at The Mines xD)

mommy said this little home sushi is cute, >:3

my things from Daiso :DD

Actually I'm still moody,

stressed up a lot by university application stuffs,

I hate this feeling of waiting,

helpless waiting,

waiting for a tiny hope,

that might shatters away simply,

like a piece of thin ice sheet,

but what else can I do?

I did my best,

I fought for everything I desire,

I get the chance,

but I have to wait.

It might be a gift,

it might be a crash.

I still,

looking for the courage to embrace,

so that it could turn up as a gift.

Fantasy . Lockheart ❤

Awesome CheanChean ❤

always my inspiration~ :D and my awesome best friend 

do visit her awesome bloggie xD

Chinese New Year

 The last working day before Chinese New Year holiday is at 9th February,
and the night at that day is my shopping day with mommy xD

Shirt from Smart Master ( it's expensive! but it's nice :D)
Polo Tee from Giordano
Polo Tee also, from Hush Puppies
Black Jacket from MDC

 Basically CNY holiday is boring for me,

most of the time I stayed at home,

except for the first day of CNY,

I went back to my daddy's hometown to have reunion dinner,

not dinner actually,

it's just a reunion meal at 11am -.-

The second day,

mommy and I stayed at home for the whole day,

while daddy busy cooking at his hometown =/.

Finally,

13th February,

the day I waited for,

so long.

Shopping Day with Chean Chean and Yeng Yeng,

Mission : Make Up Purchasing

After the serious late of that day in CF, I forced myself to wake up really early.
Get prepared at about 9.30am
This is da Polo Tee I bought from Giordano that day :D
I love this colour

Flat Nose =/

As usual,

Chean Chean is so punctual :D

she reached my home at about 10am,

and we head straight to our venue, Midvalley.

In da Mall,

the first place we went was McDonald's

we had our simple breakfast there and continues with our shopping plan.

The first place we visited was Daiso,

The RM5 Japanese Shop,

but Chean and I decided to take a look first at Watsons before I do my decision,

which make up to buy.

Basically,

I found everything I need at Watsons,

so I bought everything there in one shot :D

nice and simple.

Aww,

I also bought a brush set from Shin,

it's called EcoTools,

although it's expensive,

but the brush tip is precise,

and the brush is so FLUFFY

After I done with my shopping,

Yeng Yeng's turn next.

We head back to Daiso,

and Yeng Yeng chose some basic makeup also.

Well,

there's an epic moment,

where Chean Chean is holding some Fluffy stuff,

and she shouted with a rough voice :" FLUFFY "

as if she's a fluffy maniac,

and a guy behind her watching at her with O.O look

she ran away immediately xD

AWKWARD

After that,

we take our time in Snowflake to enjoy some sweet icy stuff :D

I miss Snowflakes <3 font="">

Flower Yeng

This is epic, Shining Tooth

Yeng's fringe!

what did she saw?!

/.\

Act cute with da big metal spoon! so failed xD

seems serious at first, before the sweet things reached.
After some sugar consumption, we went crazy.

BITCH PLEASE~?

credit to Yeng

My Poker Face, with Chean's Epic face!

AwwMaGAHD

This is what I bought.
from left,
IN2IT pencil liner
Silky Girl Pressed Powder,
Maybelline Clear Smooth B.B Cream
Maybelline Pure Mineral Concealer
KATE eyebrow pallet
simple, yet useful

This is the brush set I bought from Shin,
it's called EcoTools,
made by synthetic fibres with bamboo stick 0.0

When I reached home,

I practiced applying these things on my face for few times.

Since my eyeliner is an epic fail,

so I didn't take any picture after that.

erm..

hope I can success to draw nice liner one day!!!!

Whenever I pick up the brush,

I think of Michelle Phan first,

and Chean Chean next,

both of them showed me the awesomeness of make up,

and how fun can it be,

by looking at the power of make up,

and the transformation on your own face.

I hope one day,

I can also enjoy the fun,

of applying make up like a pro on my face.

Yes, I'm a boy,

say what you want to say,

I love Makeup,

so what bitch!

Still craving for a good eyelining skill,

I know it's not gonna be easy.

I looked at the brush set for the whole day today,

trying to arrange and figure out the best way to utilize them,

and trying to sharpen up my skills on contouring jawlines.

I looked on many Makeup tutorial videos also.

At the same time, 

configuring the best eyebrow shape for me.

❤

Special Thanks to

Yeng Yeng

Chean Chean

it's always so fun and relaxing

hanging out with both of you

Fantasy . Lockheart ❤