I didn't care..
Didn't even care whether it is a truth or it is a lie..
It has no twilight side, since it's only a dark side..
I would like to say Thank You..
Expressing my great gratitude, no matter
it's a truth or it's a lie..
Maybe in this way,
I would have learn to be calm,
Ignores every taunts,
Included implied, hidden, and implicit taunts..
However, I still think that
It's like walking beside a canyon blindfolded..
Sometime,
I frustrate,
simply because I did something,
but i done it not well enough
I even frustrate
just because of you..
I wonder,
I curious,
Why am I caring for so much?
My knowledge, my views are all narrow
I did have a strong feeling
" I have no reason and no excuse to stay behind of you "
However,
the way I talk
the way I think
the way I compose
the way I write
the way I walk
the way I sleep
the way I read
I found out slowly,
that I have no match of anyone
The strong feeling gone down
I'm helpless, clueless
Leaved alone, have no competitive spirit
What can I do?
Nothing more
I've to slap myself,
to make this " nothing more "
into a even better " nothing more "
Yesterday's speaking test
my task was just that easy
but my brain just gone blank
things became out of order, unruled
Yes, I couldn't finish my task A
I missed my conclusion sentence
my use of word was immature
my points are weak
Yes, I think i failed.
Task B
getting better
I feel comfort with my group members
I speak quite a lot
Maybe it's just sufficient
My language IS poor,
fluency of speaking IS damn poor
I have no idea what happened to me
I think
It maybe something that we always talk about
" Nervous "
It's not first time
I had this feeling
But this time it's different
maybe it's simply because
Nervous in no longer a simple nervous
it already became a pressure, by summing itself with many other things
Depressing me everyday
Me
I
have no idea
to handle this
I'm not begging for your help
But I'm begging you,
please
please
don't ever ever again,
pierce my heart
I'm a human,
I'll bleed JUST LIKE YOU DO..
Taunts are something that I could handle,
But I couldn't forget...
The Rose of May
A stunning miracle
Just getting ready
to unleash it extremely gorgeous
Evil and Beautiful
TRUTH
Fantasy . Lockheart
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