it's 25th December,
Christmas.
Sorry to those who love this season,
I hate it,
deep from my heart.
But,
something changed,
rather than sulking in a corner alone,
I did something different this year.
I busy preparing present,
for someone,
named Julian.
He's my previous next door mate,
he's the one I talked to when I first reached UMT,
he's the one willing to listen to my shit at midnight,
he's the one helped me to take my key by climbing over balcony,
he's the one smile at me during my toughest time,
he's the one took me to hospital 12am midnight and wait beside me until 2am.
我真的不喜欢圣诞节，
完全没有好感，
每年的整个12月对我来说都不曾有过好事，
而坏事的高潮总在25日，
12月22日
我丢下怀念过去的自己，
花了几个小时在录音，
把自己的心情，
透过歌声传达，
唱得是自己的心，
听的是自己的泪。
12月23日
我丢下颓废的自己，
半夜独自在厨房，
轻轻的哼着熟悉的旋律，
静静的等着巧克力融化，
强忍着泪水，
做了一个自己不能吃的甜品，
因为我知道，
如果我做了一个自己吃的下去东西，
在25日当天，
笑着崩溃的会是我自己
很感激你的存在，
让我的圣诞节有了别的意义，
至少我忙的不是埋藏自己的情绪，
忙的是为你准备礼物。
All your words
Seem gentle in my dreams.
But they're lies
And I turn away.
You cheater.
You began a journey
Sensing roughness ahead.
It's strange.
Why do you fight alone?
You cheater.
"I'll come back."
Your voice passes me.
Memories grow.
But I'm tough.
Time that's returned
That got away.
I should have yelled don't go, with tears in my eyes
And now
I can't do a thing.
I cannot say
The 1000 words.
Faraway
To your back.
My words can't fly to you.
I cannot say
The 1000 words.
You're wounded
And I can't reach you.
I want to hold you.
The dream goes on
My feelings are for you.
That faraway day
That I want to forget.
You cheater.
"I'll write to you."
Your voice goes away.
Memories grow.
But I'm tough.
Time that's returned
That once left.
Was I to say I couldn't wait that long?
And now
I can't do a thing.
Can you hear it?
My 1000 words.
Reaching to
Your faded away back
On wings.
Can you hear it?
My 1000 words
Your tired back
They reach towards.
I want to hold you.
Seem gentle in my dreams.
But they're lies
And I turn away.
You cheater.
You began a journey
Sensing roughness ahead.
It's strange.
Why do you fight alone?
You cheater.
"I'll come back."
Your voice passes me.
Memories grow.
But I'm tough.
Time that's returned
That got away.
I should have yelled don't go, with tears in my eyes
And now
I can't do a thing.
I cannot say
The 1000 words.
Faraway
To your back.
My words can't fly to you.
I cannot say
The 1000 words.
You're wounded
And I can't reach you.
I want to hold you.
The dream goes on
My feelings are for you.
That faraway day
That I want to forget.
You cheater.
"I'll write to you."
Your voice goes away.
Memories grow.
But I'm tough.
Time that's returned
That once left.
Was I to say I couldn't wait that long?
And now
I can't do a thing.
Can you hear it?
My 1000 words.
Reaching to
Your faded away back
On wings.
Can you hear it?
My 1000 words
Your tired back
They reach towards.
I want to hold you.
我真的很不喜欢圣诞节，
可是也许以后不会讨厌，
也说不定。=）
谢谢你，
生日快乐，
圣诞节快乐。
It's yet another christmas,
but yet another memorable Christmas,
at least not in a bad way.
Things happened too fast recently,
I've spent most of my time alone,
I'm afraid,
I no longer understand how to feel,
existence.
Don't forget to keep on smiling.
-Fantasy.Lockheart-
Happy Christmas =3
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